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How do we know we actually exist?

Do we actually exist?
This is a tricky one, sorry to be quite so heavy, but understanding this is the key to understanding a lot more about our reality and how it functions.
Last time I asked, as energy beings living in an energy matrix, how we knew we were” real” at all. Scary thought but one we should address .This has been debated by philosophers and scientists for thousands of years. The answer is of course, that we only know we exist because we think and are aware. “I think therefore I am”
Interesting enough, we cannot know anyone else exists at all. Interactions with anyone else could be a trick of our brains. All our senses , touch hearing etc, which are the way we make sense of what is around us , are all functions of our brain. Thought comes instantaneously before physical sensation or action. It could be misleading us.
One of the main keys in trying to understand the truth about who and what we are is human consciousness. It is the joker in the pack. Very difficult to pin down but we individually know we have it .It is what makes us us and our vehicle for making sense of the world around us.
The great debate is whether it is one system or two. Whether it is just a function of our physical brains or something else coming in from outside as an add on. If it is the latter, and there is overwhelming anecdotal evidence that that is the case, then it opens up vast possibilities for the big picture of who we actually are and our place in the universe. If our consciousness is separate and separable from our physical body, and can be shown to go on after our physical death, then then the big picture possibilities, who we actually are, and what we are doing here get a whole lot more interesting.
.I always think of life as an interactive video game, after all we are at base energy beings living in an energy matrix, only our consciousness makes us who we are. Life comes down to what game you are playing and what your mission is. Our instincts and hints given by the universe and the deep understanding given by our consciousness’s are the best reflections/insights we have. Unfortunately, at the moment the instruction manuals are beyond our reach!

Watching the plan

There are always times in your life when you sense the greater game. When events play out around you beyond your control. Rather than worry about them you begin to watch in a detached way. There is a great feeling that this was always the plan. This is the scenario that you signed up for before you were born.
I am learning now to go with the flow, to accept rather than fight. To understand that there is a preplanned big picture here, and I, on one level, chose it.

This plays exactly into the big question. That is who actually are we and what are we doing here?

Who and what are we actually?

What and who are we actually?

We think we know who and what we are.When we look about us, at our fellow humans and the world and universe around us, we see seemingly solid entities, rocks, seas and stones stars and planets. Reality, we think, looks substantial and fixed. This is actually an illusion. (more…)

How did You Know?

Thought for the day 2

How did you know?

As per my glitter ball analogy of yesterday, I have another question to ask. The reflections, aspects or clues, whatever you like to call them, that reflect back into our reality, what were they for you? What did you see or understand which led you to realise that the physical reality in which we live I not, and cannot be the whole story?

For me it was a gradual realisation through childhood and adult hood. Although to be honest, even from a small child things did not feel right to me. I could see glitches and anomalies, enough to make me question things anyway. This triggered a life long fascination about how our reality actually works.

  • My first husband and I understood that we had met before in a previous incarnation. That was before such things were generally discussed or known about.
  • My mother could accurately see the future..did this mean that the future had already happened? It scared her.
  • The past life memories that began to bleed through that actually explained irrational fears that I held in this life.
  • The” boo” straight into my ear one night when no one was there.
  • The dark shape that wandered across my sitting room floor then disappeared. I may have thought that I was imagining it, but I saw a shocked expression on my companions face as he had seen it too.
  • The orbs that we saw and heard in a haunted hotel in Wales.
  • The time slip that occurred when driving along a country road late at night. A segment of a  radio programme repeated itself completely.

These are just a few examples, I am sure you have more…please share if you feel able.


Thought for the day

 I was asked to do a thought for the day sequence for a Facebook group ( Nothing fancy spiritual) and I thought I would share it here as it gets to the heart of what I am trying to achieve with my web blog.

Thought for the day,

In all my research for my books on the nature of reality, I started with two burning questions. Who are we, and what are we really doing here? Simple questions but actually almost unanswerable. (more…)

More fundamental elementals

Elementals are magical beings, building blocks of our existence. As ever research is very difficult and  there are different variations on the names and features of these entities. They are said to interact to make us, and there are many variations on the theme. This is a totally different way of looking at our creation and existence. The following list was given to me by Matthew Gibson. He reminds me that when I refer to our reality, I mean the 2nd Astral realm where we experience physical life.

He states that as well as the 5 elementals, Earth, fire, air water and storm there is:  Onix, light, death, dark, aether and life.

Onix- is the elemental that makes up the soul

Light- the elemental consisting of photons which in conjunction with our eyes allow us to see.

Death- is a transitional element ( vital to transform physical matter into etheric energy), which enables the spirit and soul to move on to the next plane.

Dark- the anti proton element which is behind dark matter and black holes etc.

Aether- this is the element of spirit, which pervades our reality.

Life- the element which gives is life, the generation of which science cannot yet properly explain.

Every element has a male and female aspect, giving 22 in total.

They occupy their own realms and venture into our physical world.

Fundamentally, as human beings we are made up of these elements.

A whole new way of looking at our reality. More research needed!


Storm Elemental

As before discussed, an elemental is a type of magical entity who personifies a force of nature and controls natural powers derived from their element. The 16th century Alchemist, Paraclelsus, identified the four categories, gnomes, undines, sylphs, and salamanders which I explored last time. These correspond to the classical elements of antiquity: earth, water, air and fire. These are still widely used today. This may not be the whole story though.

It has been brought to my attention that there are other elemental beings though, who are just as vital in our reality, for example, STORM.  My American contact Matthew Gibson has explained to me that Storm is an enhancement element that freely combines quite often with the other four physical elements: earthquakes, tornadoes, forest fires/infernos, and hurricanes are all examples of this.

The problem is though, as with all the elementals, that the rise of the fantasy games industry, has blurred even further the lines between fact and fiction in researching these beings. Very excitingly though, there are more elemental beings which are fundamental to the creation of our reality.

These I will explore next time.

The Face on Mars

Went to a lecture last night on “The face on Mars “on the area of Mars known as  Cydonia. Massives (large hills(?)with shiny tops ,high albedo) nearby can be linked to show a regular geometric pattern which hardly seems natural. A member of the audience then contributed to tell us about his work on ancient sites in the UK, which had similar geometric angles and values. Could there be a link? The strange structures that look like buildings on the dark side of the moon, were also discussed. The question then was “Are these evidence of ancient alien civilizations?” There have been several books published on the phenomenon, and other strange structures on Mars. (more…)

Gnomes, sylphs, undines and salamanders


Beyond science, hard information is very difficult to obtain on these special and vital beings. I have distilled the information available as accurately as I could.  The trouble is that many people and sources do not always agree. Myth and fantasy games also muddy the information stream. All I can say is that, all sources agree that these beings live on the astral plane and seem to be essential to our, and the Earth’s, existence. In some senses this is a simplified story, though, but glimpses of a bigger picture of reality do begin to emerge.

Gnomes ( Earth elementals)

Dumpy and grumpy guarding mines and treasures. They are said to move through the Earth at will. They are usually portrayed as wizened old men with pointed hats and beards. The nature spirits who serve at the physical level are called gnomes.

There are said to be billions of Gnomes that work tirelessly all the year round to make sure that all living things get what they need. They also process waste and mitigate, where possible, pollutants, negative energies as well as those physically poisonous to the Earth and humanity.

Sylphs ( Air elementals)

Sylphs are believed to be an offshoot branch of the sidhe, a supernatural race comparable to the fairies or elves. Sometimes they look like clouds, other times they can be seen as tall thin humans, but with large wings. They can be mistaken for angels or vice – versa. They are said to purify the air, but also the mental plane. They can soar above the Earth at will and travel great distances.

Undines ( Water elementals)

Undines are supposed to be spirits of the water, some say present in every drop. The undines protect water and also try to cleanse waters that have been poisoned by sewage, industrial waste, chemicals, pesticides and other substances. They work ceaselessly to heal the polluted seas. They usually, but not always, resemble female humans, mermaids are supposed to be a sub –species, but there are others. As mermaids they may interact with human men. Merman also exist.

Salamanders ( Fire elementals)



Great claims are made for salamanders. They are said to appear as adult male humans made from flames or sometimes lizards. They control the element of fire.

In some circles they are said to infuse our reality with the energies of the Spirit necessary to sustain life on earth. Capable of wielding both the most intense fires of the physical atom and the purifying, spiritual fires of Spirit, they control the spiritual-material oscillation of light within the nucleus of every atom. They are agents for the transfer of the fires of the subtle world for our everyday use. They also absorb negativity from humanity.


This is just one layer of elemental beings though. The big picture of elemental beings in our reality is much more complex and includes ourselves.

More next time.




Elemental spirits of Earth, fire, air and water

Alongside all the other nature spirits there are elemental beings which also help life on Earth to exist and flourish. In antiquity there was said to be 4 elements which made up the Earth. That is earth, fire, air and water. Our understanding of these elemental beings is based on these categories. The Chinese have a 5th, iron, and I am sure there are many other cultural variations. (more…)